its been a while here,
all the memory starts here. everyhting, the first point I've learned to knew a persons as a woman.
to have the feeling, the desire to like and wanted to feel belonging.
and now i got nothing, everyhting slips from me one by one,
the people i really rely on is gone, far, far away from my gasp.
neither family nor a partner do i have now. a huge responsibility at the same time.
i have nothing now except god.
i tryto be careful yet i still made mistakes i thought i can avoid as a man.
i am careless, clueless, mindless. dumb for sure.
ya Allah, gve me the strength , get me back on the right track where i used to be.
i have to let one by one go even i dont want to lose them at the end.
i dont wanted them to be burden by me, felt the same mistakes, have their good and happy life.
this is my sacrifice for them. i hope everyhtings will be ok and everyone will forget about me , out from their memories. life will never be the same again, but i hope everything will get better, for everyone...
